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To address a couple things..

Okay, so I just wanted to address a couple things that have been on my mind lately, possibly engendered by the responses to my latest venty post (though I take nothing back, and seriously am thankful for your overwhelming encouragement). It may be extremely unnecessary and I’m sorry if you think this is pointless but I’m writing this for me just as much as I am for you guys.

First of all, I’ve decided not to delete any of my previous posts.

Last night I kind of lost sleep over how I want to run my blog because tumblr has become more than just a website for me. I do care about you guys and I do want to represent Christianity in the most accurate way possible - both to people who share the faith, and to those who don’t know about it, don’t agree with it, or are just curious about it. So I kind of took a step back today to reflect on what I’m really doing on this site and how I’m doing it. The purpose of a blog is to share (in this case) parts of my life with people. The ‘how’ has a couple options.

There’s the option of posting only polished thoughts, things I have pondered and prayed about, things that I think would be encouraging and beneficial for you guys to read - and there’s the option of being completely raw and in-the-moment with you guys. The latter isn’t always pretty, but it is honest.

I’ve decided that I’m going to continue doing what I promised I would do from the start of my tumblr. I’m going to be real, and as truthful as possible, always. Sometimes, I will post spur-of-the-moment things; I will use this blog as an outlet to vent and rant and talk about things that excite me. Sometimes I’ll be emotional. I’m not going to censor myself to make other people comfortable. But sometimes I will make well-thought out posts and talk about things that have been laid on my heart too.

This blog is going to be a direct reflection of where I am in life, meaning it’s always going to reflect my flaws, but at the same time, it’s always going to reflect His overwhelming Love and Grace. Sometimes I’ll have good days and sometimes I’ll have bad ones. Faith comes with multiple seasons. And I’m going to be honest about all of them. I owe myself and you guys that much.

As a fair warning, sometimes I’ll end up swearing in my posts, just like sometimes I do in person. It’s not something I’m proud of, and I’m working on being mindful of my words, so hopefully (I predict) it’ll die off, but sometimes it happens. I’m honestly generally against swearing, but sometimes there’s no other way to express an emotion properly and honestly, even though I should, sometimes I just don’t care. It’s just another aspect of my daily life and where I am and I’m sorry if that offends you. 

At the same time I realize that I need to be mindful of the unknown struggles of others, and try to not unintentionally be a stumbling block. It is best to lead the way by example and action and I’m working on that too, so I’ll definitely take that into consideration before I post something as well

Overall, if you choose to follow me or to continue to follow me, know I’ll do my best to be unapologetically who I am and reflect Jesus in just the same way. I’m going to be as real as possible because that’s all I can do, and that’s going to include all the great encouraging well-thought-out posts and all the emotional ranty ones. All my shitty days and all my good days. I’m just kind of learning as I go along.

I really genuinely value you guys and I love getting to know you and learning from you, and your encouragement is priceless.

So yeah, thanks for being awesome people. I hope your weeks are freakin awesome and I hope you eat foods that make you happy and have good conversations and get lots of sunshine.

Love you guys. 

I’m probably just going to delete everything from last night as soon as i get home. I guess I should be more conscientious about what I post but whatever I share on here I’m going to be honest about. At the same time, I want my blog to be a place of encouragement. I don’t need to entertain grey faces who argue for the sake of arguing. 

Sorry about that, guys x

Anonymous:
Like I said, I'm anon for a reason. Also, I know that you're very young. When I was your age, I thought I knew it all too. But as you get older, you realize that you don't know as much as you think and you're not as smart as you think you are either. I know you won't see any of my points until you get older, walk in the faith longer, and you see just how evil this world is. So yes, we'll agree to disagree. ;) Good night!
Me:

First of all, I’m not you. I don’t think I know it all, anon. Quite the opposite. The first step to intelligence is realizing that you know absolutely nothing. It’s something I remind myself everyday, and something that I think is indiscriminatory of age. Old age doesn’t guarantee wisdom. And youth doesn’t equate to naievity. It bothers me when the valid thoughts of young people are written off because of their age.

I’m not trying to look like I know everything, because I don’t. At all. I’m only trying to be honest with myself and the people who follow me.

Peace x 

rewindtoinnocence:
This is for your anon- Hello anon! I don't know if you seem to be a believer, and I think it is great that you are trying to keep Cassie accountable, but in the interest in keeping things Christ like it is quite unbiblical to address sin struggles in someones life "anonymously" as such things should be done in a personal manner. It is likely that you are not part of Cassie's faith community and there for it really isn't your place to be rebuking her, especially in a public forum...
Me:
rewindtoinnocence:
the accountability of Christian brothers and sister is meant to be carried out in the community, and largely in a private manner,.unless of course the person refuses to repent , but it does not seem like you have done the initial steps I could be wrong however. now I realize that this may seem vastly hypocritical because I am doing the same thing, though the circumstance is different because I have no idea who you are, my hope is that you will message me! That being said peace to you bro/sis!
Me:
Anonymous:
As usual, you're not getting what I'm saying. And all of that cursing wasn't called for. What I read was just a bunch of excuses. Anyway, we're belaboring the point. You won't see what I'm trying to say and those Bible verses I gave you totally went over your head. And I kept it anon for a reason. Anyway, I hope you have a great week.
Me:

Your condescension is kind of uncalled for, and the grey face doesn’t do much for the sincerity of your point. It appears all my arguments have gone over yours as well.

Let’s agree to disagree :)

Goodnight!  

Anonymous:
You're right...we're not being very productive. You will have to experience more of this evil world to know where I'm coming from. And don't allow that other anon to encourage you to curse on your blog (Psalm 19:14). Also, Revelation 16: 10-11 clearly talks about the enemies of Christ. I'm not perfect either, but we have to keep representing The King correctly. Proverbs 22: 24, Psalm 1: 1-2. Hopefully, you'll look up these verses and not allow your pride to keep you from doing so.
Me:

You don’t know how much evil I’ve witnessed, anon, nor I you. So let’s not assume. And I don’t generally support profanity, albeit it’s a bad habit I’ve picked up recently. I do understand the importance of choosing words with care, as that is a verse I’ve taken to heart. It is something I’m working on and I don’t think it taints my testimony one bit, as you’ve previously mentioned. My testimony has never been about ‘how God saved me from saying the f word’ 

Cursing is a public thing and this little cursing binge has been an interesting experiment-type learning experience. I’ve found that Christians and people in general get a lot of flack for visible ‘flaws’ like the use of profanity, and it’s so easy to cover up the internal ones. If I wanted, I could fill my blog with Bible verses and posts about Jesus and start an anti-swearing campaign but be completely broken on the inside, and not have Jesus present in what I do. I wouldn’t even have to be a Christian to do that, yet I’d get praised for it. Things that look good are not always genuine. 

My testimony will continue to be real and true. This blog is a reflection of my life and subsequently my journey with Christ. I don’t see why it shouldn’t reflect the messy parts as well. I live for a God who embraced my mess, loves me relentlessly, and gives me life. That will always be my testimony. The rest is all detail. 

I’m not going to put up a facade of a Christian who gets everything right, or does everything correctly, all put together and pretty, because I would be lying. I’m a mess that’s being constantly redeemed and changed by Love and overwhelmed by Grace. That is true, and that is how I will represent the King - by how real and present He is in my life. By how I know Him. By who He’s revealed Himself to me to be. That’s the conviction He’s laid upon my heart and frankly, that’s all I know to do. 

Thank you for the verses. Some aren’t applicable at all but some are understandable. And don’t worry, pride isn’t an issue here. Thanks for your input, though it would’ve had a lot more backing if you had confronted me privately, off anon.

I wish you all the best, God bless. Love ya x 

Anonymous:
But your rant was so wrong. I know you think you're right, but you're not. And I know you feel you have a right to vent, but you don't, especially since you're wrong. And all of that cursing ruins your testimony. So, you are wrong on so many levels. I don't know the whole story to your rant, but don't allow the world to get to you. I know it's hard, but it can be done.
Me:

Thank you for your riveting arguments. I appreciate your heart and concern, anon, but I’m not sure we’re being very productive right now. 

EXACTLY. If you need to speak your heart and be completely honest, DO THAT. We’ve got too much fakeness in the church as it is, we don’t need you wearing masks. Live in truth.

Seriously thank you. I agree, and I really needed that reminder and encouragement x 

musiqchild007 replied to your post “Your “rant” is very un-Godly..I’m sorry to say. Also, there is a spiritual warfare going on and there will be those who will never accept Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior. Plus, look how Jesus talked to and treated the Pharises and the Saducess. He was not chummy with them. You’re still young and you will quickly see that the world is evil. There are those who will want to kill and persecute Christians. So yes, there is an “us” vs. “them”. You’ll see when you get older.”

Did this anon really pull that line on you? This anon’s heart is probably in the right place but he’s way outta line for this message. If you need to vent VENT, don’t hold anything in. God isnt afraid of your mess. NOR offended if you cuss.

Thanks man <3 I’m absolutely sure anon’s heart is in the right place, and I appreciated the message although I don’t quite agree. I’ve always thought that about Him too. Jesus takes joy out of working with and through messes like me so thank God for that. My blog was never meant to be picture perfect anyway. I’m flawed but redeemed and I think that’s the beauty of it.

Anonymous:
Your "rant" is very un-Godly..I'm sorry to say. Also, there is a spiritual warfare going on and there will be those who will never accept Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior. Plus, look how Jesus talked to and treated the Pharises and the Saducess. He was not chummy with them. You're still young and you will quickly see that the world is evil. There are those who will want to kill and persecute Christians. So yes, there is an "us" vs. "them". You'll see when you get older.
Me:

You’re very right, it wasn’t. It wasn’t well thought out or meant to be beneficial to people. Often my thoughts and prayers aren’t very Godly either, nor are they put together, but they’re real, and I guess some of my posts tend to reflect that. I never intended for my blog to make it look like I’m a Christian who has it all together. It’s so easy to put forth an edited and carefully tweaked persona on tumblr. I can make people believe about me whatever I choose to display. And I just want to be as real as possible. I’m a person who’s on a journey of being remade by her Creator and for me at least, it can be a messy process. Nevertheless, you’re right, and with the audience I have I should be more mindful of what I post. 

You’re right again: there will definitely be people who never come to Christ. However, I don’t see a reason to treat those people any differently for it, or love them any differently for it, as God does not and Jesus never did. And yes, Jesus wasn’t ‘chummy’ with the Pharisees. They were working against everything He came to do. He spoke to them as was appropriate and He said what was most effective, for the Pharisees themselves and for the people around Him to hear. He said as much as was needed for those willing to listen and for those who were bent on not listening, like the Pharisees. But I don’t think you can generalize even that as an ‘us’ and ‘them,’ for every one of the Pharisees was an individual heart. People like Nicodemus for example, a Pharisee, who Jesus befriended openly because of his heart and willingness, even though He knew this man was originally working against Him (John 3). Jesus put the love out there, but only some responded to it. Some people listen and some do not, but He loved them no differently for it. 

Ah, and you’re right again. I am young in age. Wisdom often accompanies years but is definitely not bound to them. I need not years to understand how absolutely cruel, unjust and evil the world we live in is, believe me. I have very little faith in our world and in humanity. But even so, I need not years to know His love, or the things He chooses to reveal to me. And yes, there are those who want nothing more than to kill and persecute Christians. It is happening right now, it has happened throughout history, and will happen in the future. That is guaranteed. However, the Jesus I know used some of His last words to pray for the people who spat on Him, ridiculed, tortured and killed Him. His love is relentless. In the final moments of his death He did what He could to prove to those that hated Him that He loved them still. And if I’m not mistaken, we are told to follow in His example. (Unless there’s a place in the Bible where He instructs to do otherwise against persecution, I’d love to read about it if you have a verse).

There are those of us who know Him and those of us who don’t. Still, I cannot see where those of us who know Him are considered more worthy of love than those who don’t. We are all broken people in need of a Saviour. The only difference is that some of us have found Him. Now we’re in the business of pointing others towards Him, too, whether or not they persecute us. That never stopped Jesus from loving unconditionally and it shouldn’t stop us. 

x

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